When you are used to feeling bad so often, when you have a day in which you feel good, you notice it. It’s not that people like my husband, who is perpetually happy and energetic and pain-free, take their feeling good for granted. But I do think that those of us who are used to feeling bad more acutely notice an occasional lightness of being.
Just this morning I was sitting across the couch with my 20-month old son as we were reading books together. I was struck by a sense of lightness. My chest swelled. My head felt almost (positively) tipsy. And my eyes teared from this terribly infrequent sense of wellbeing.
The sad thing about this moment is that it comes from being back on Depakote. And the wonderful thing about this moment is that being back on Depakote allowed me to have this moment.
